11 March 2016

Yes, I am fully aware that my picture is of the Brighton Wheel, not an actual 'ferris wheel'. Just stick with me guys, you know you want to!  Life, and plans in general are funny old things, aren't they? We try and plan so much and freak the hell out when it deviates slightly from what we want. Sure...things turn out how we want sometimes, but a lot of the time, something will throw a spanner in the works and it will either take longer to get to where we wanted, or just end up taking an entirely different path.

Brighton Wheel

Talking to a friend a couple of years ago, I remember saying how I love taking the scenic route in life, because it allows you to learn along the way instead of taking shortcuts and not necessarily growing as a person. But if someone had told me late last year what my mindset and attitude is at the moment? I would have told them to show themselves out the nearest door and keep walking because man, last year was a crappy old time, that's for sure. I've had some moments where I've been a real Debbie Downer, but last year took the proverbial biscuit. 

Honestly, I got to such a bad point last year, that I thought that it's where I'd be stuck for the foreseeable future. Depression, anxiety or any kind of mental illness...or just anything that messes up your flow in life - it's a real bitch and although most days are now good to an extent for me, there's still hiccups. And that's where the ferris wheel/wheel of any kind analogy comes in. It's not actually an analogy but it sounded like a good title for the post...but life has it's ups and downs. This we know. But I feel a ferris wheel represents it best. We're in one of the pods on it, and as we go around, something happens within each rotation. Whether that's good or bad, who knows? We take it as it comes. But with it rotation, we learn something new. We grow from previous rotations. And when we pop our clogs? The ferris wheel rolls off into the sunset. Okay. Not true, but the mental picture of the wheel just rolling off into the sunset made me chuckle.

Anyway. The bad points in the past few years have taught me to back up and leg it from anything that mildly triggers me - this is something I've come to realise more and more over the past few months...that many things trigger me and in a way, I am happy that I am finding out what these triggers are, as then crapola moments will hopefully not happen as often. But things have been happening lately...good things. Nice things. Sure, some bits I've worked for, but other things have been pleasant surprises. Things I stressed about a while ago, and then put in the pot of life, to let it stew over, and kind of forgot about it. Why can't I go a post without talking about food in some shape or form?

When I popped to Brighton on Monday, it was nice to breathe in that sea air (even if I was racing under any form of shelter on the pier because there were tons of birds flying over and around pretty as it looked, getting a...present from one of them on my head or shoulders isn't what I'd want). You know when there's moments where you just want to give yourself a high five, a pat on the back or a hug for making it through rubbish times. That was one of those moments. I also wanted to do the above, for avoiding the birds successfully. Whilst life still isn't making me want to cartwheel everywhere with joy...I'm feeling good. Better. And if we take each day as it comes and get excited about bits and bobs that may happen in the future? Then that's cool.

Oh and then I got some really exciting news on Wednesday that is one of the things that has been stewing in the pot of life. God that sounds corny as hell, but I also love it When I know it's all good to talk about? You probably won't hear the end of it. Basically, the cogs are turning continuously without any hiccups in the background whilst we stress out about stuff in our lives. It's probably not just me, but when any of you guys are panicked, worried or just caught up with stuff, you forget about other things going on in your life, right?

So even if you are feeling down in the dumps, or that life is bland currently? Just hold on. It may seem an effort to wake up each morning and do the simplest of tasks but just hold on. Your ferris wheel has a ton of rotations left in it. Just sit tightly, and the enjoyable rotations are so close.

Okay. I wanted to do an update post of things going on in my life, but...this is what came of it. It probably doesn't make much sense, but it's nice to get it out there!

Do you want a grater? Because this post was full of ALL the cheese.


  1. Seriously, you write so well. Another beautiful piece from you again, I always love reading your posts. Because it kinda calms me down.
    Love, Fads

  2. Nice post. Life is a ferris wheel.

  3. The example of Ferris Wheel is so on point! I gotta agree how life would go up and down like a cart of the wheel. I've been to that point when I didn't want to leave my bed and would rather bury myself in the comforter and sleep for the rest of my life. But it's OK, I guess. My cart of life was probably in the downwards position on Wheel Of Universe (or something).

    I'm so happy to hear things are falling in place for you. YOU GO GIRL!!!! And your food references cracked me up. Haha!

    Noor | Noor's Place

  4. wow you write so beautifully, i am so glad i stumbled upon your blog. what a perfect analogy for life and when you are feeling down. next time i am feeling upset or sad i will think about how the ferris wheel and how i just have to be patient. great post and good to hear you are growing happier each day =o)

  5. Great post. I never thought of ferris wheels in this way. Another thing I just realized, which you kind of said already in your post, that with a ferris wheel once you are up top, you have the worlds greatest view, all the possibilities of life, but when you are down below the only things you see are your closest surroundings and they mostly suck.
    xx Eline |

  6. I'm going through all the depression and anxiety. I know I'll get there, so thank you for giving me an extra lift this morning!

  7. I'll have that grater, Meg, and I'll have dinner with you, because this post needs to be transformed into an actual conversation with people, and I'd like to have that with you if I ever get to go to the UK. (that didn't really make sense, but MOVING ON...)

    I completely get where you're coming from, Meg. I've been finding out a lot of my triggers throughout the past couple years, too, and being able to find these trigger points and eradicate them from my life as best as I can has been pretty life transforming. The ferris wheel of life takes us on weird little journeys, all the way to the top where scenic views consume us and all the way to the bottom where ground and dirt dwell, and then sometimes, we can stuck midway, or a bird flies past and does a dump, and all these things, but, like you said, everything will be alright in the end because there are so many more rotations to get through.

    I'm so happy that you received great news, Meg. I did, too, recently and I think my ferris wheel is stuck high up in the clouds right now, so cheers. x


  8. Amazing post! You're so right about the whole ferris wheel thing! I never throught about it like that before, but it's probably the best analogy I've heard! x

  9. It's so true, life is full of ups and downs! I'm glad life is on the up for you at the mo, it all sounds so exciting! x

    Josie | Sick Chick Chic

  10. What life without a bit of cheese (even though I'm lactose intolerant but whatevs screw that shiz)?! I'm so glad to hear that you have good news, nothing like a lil bit of that to put things into perspective! Likewise, I remember 3/4 years ago as the 'dark ages' because everything I saw was so hollow and empty it made me churn, but funny how things turn out... e.g. two months ago I was at the verge of getting kicked out of the country but whoa little did I know how fast things would change in the span of 1 week!

    Also food is great in all forms of conversations. I approve.

    Cherie x
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  11. i remember i had some tough times in high school but i kept going on and i'm def in a much better place now. it's funny how we all just need some time to get better x

  12. Beautifully written Meg and so important to talk about too as so many people will be able to relate to this. Life has definitely had some pretty low lows for me too but things are on the up and it's made me so grateful for the amazing times. Hoping the ferri wheel brings you happiness on every rotation girly!


  13. Really lovely post that I thoroughly enjoyed reading. It was exactly what I needed to hear right now as things aren't going exactly as I had 'planned' we'll get round the wheel in end just need to remember to take in the view on the way! :)

  14. I would like some more cheese with my grater, please. Yes, life is a Ferris Wheel (best analogy ever btw) and there are ups and downs and maybe a few spin cycles on the way. The next time I am down, I am going to tell myself that this is my rotation, I am learning something new, and perhaps the next rotation will be full of a different kind of magic.


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